confession

i truly must confess, i am a horrible christian. my faith is weak and i'm way too impatient.

i just realized that i'm so busy worrying about what God's plan is going to be for me, i don't appreciate and enjoy the gifts He gives me everyday. it is extremely egotistical of me to think that i need to know His plans. my job is to follow Him every day, regardless of what His overall plan is. i should know this stuff. i should remember this stuff, but i'm flesh afterall.

so i need reminding.

i need moments like tonight with w and i talking with the grandkids, interacting with them, explaining things to them to realize that i am exactly where He wants me to be, doing exactly what He wants me to do. if not us (w and i), then who? what greater legacy to leave on this earth than good, strong, christian people.

i need to remember just how blessed i am.