getting better everday

it's been a bit frustrating dealing with the sleep needs. doesn't take much at all to have me running back to my bed for yet another nap.

i feel as though i should be making more progress, but without the meds, there is discomfort, with the meds there is tiredness. i want to get at least some things done. want to visit my mother today and although that is the plan, when it comes right down to it, it will depend on if i'm conscious at that point or not. it's rather like being a newborn again.

on the plus side, the pre-surgical pain is GONE. so i know once this pain, which improves almost daily, is done, i will have my life back.

for that i am extremely thankful.

i'm here

sorry it has taken me so long to post. things didn't go exactly as planned and i ended up in icu for a few days fighting for my life. at one point, i looked at w and said "i'm not going to make it." and i really thought that was the truth.

my blood pressure had bottomed out and combined with the continued high blood pressure meds and morphine, i was almost flatlined. but my dear husband and the hospital staff responded like pure professionals. they have this group called the SWAT Team that was called in to action and within 10 minutes had me feeling better than when i had walked in to the hospital.

i spent the next 3 days in and out of consciousness with my husband, my best friend and my hero, sitting right my my side. they were all the same people.

more later when the drugs don't have such a strong hold on me.